Trying to piece back together my life in a way. Sometimes it seems like nothing quite makes sense then a simple thing like a drive home can soothe everything. Tonight the air felt strangely new and comforting driving home from my sisters. I happened upon some of the most beautiful Opera I have ever heard. For some reason the music seemed to say exactly what I have been feeling the past few days. There are times in my life when I marvel at how I've maintained an innocence, but recently I've felt quite unmovable and terse. But I can see that is luckily changing as I accept the way things are. Essentially the pain that comes with being fully alive is so heartbreakingly beautiful...well at least at this moment.